Im just sitting here trying to find myself. Im wondering why i cant find a job, why my grades are slipping and why i cant keep a good relationship steady. Sometimes i feel like im just a failure to everything, even my artwork sucks a little. Im wanting to stay positive and fight thru the stress and disappointment im causing myself , but its hard. Especially when there is really no one here to lean on. I cant make friends....I starting to realize what my problem is too.. I say CANT too much. I need to get my head on straight and get my priorities right for one thing. Find a job, fix everything with my boyfriend you know -- stop cheating, and lying so much. I dunno whats wrong with me. I need to pray, i need something better for myself..I need for myself to be better is all that is. You know what im going to do it. Im going to make myself a better person. Change doesnt come suddenly but i can guarauntee this change will be acknowledged. I want to be successful.

10/26/11, 11:29AM PST

Baby Come home, Lets come together and let Jah build our home strong thru prayer ; and Ask that he guides us as a whole in the right direction. I know I did wrong, I have been unappreciative and unaffectionate but when times have gone wrong, Im singing a song thru tears that says baby come home.....
I love you with all my heart and I know i have put trust in jeopardy for us ,
but ask for you to take me back, and let us be together at last.
I ask that you let me come home, and that you come home, so we can build our home. I ask this once and a thousand times thru prayer and in person thru emotion and physical being,.....Baby come home....this foundation will not be the same. I admit that i am the blame , for everything.
Come home....
I need you....
You need I Thats makes we,
Thats US,
Dont go away for a long time, lets build our trust....
Baby please....Please....Please...Come home.

10/25/11, 5:01PM PST